HeatherLAAF

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I Make Wishes by HeatherLAAF, literature

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I Make Wishes

I like to make wishes - on shooting stars on flickering candles on soaring airplanes. Can paper planes count when I need them too? I close my eyes real tight entwine these small fingers and send my wishes up to God like a balloon: I wish I'll do well at my job today, I say. I wish I'll fall in love. I wish I'll go on this trip, I whisper get this job, get this grade. I wish I'll feel loved today. that I won't think about cutting. that I'll be happy to be alive, I cry. I wish I'll be proud of myself. I wish I'll make a best friend. I wish I won't hate everything about myself, I sign. I wish, I wish, I wish. God, hear this wish. But the

Bottles by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Bottles

What’s the word for that feeling – The one where you swing in the air Jump off Right before you hit the ground? Exhilaration? Euphoria? What’s the feeling when the world is still sleeping And you stare up at the full moon and sky of stars? Peacefulness? Comfort? How about the feeling when someone says they were thinking about you Or that they found something they thought you would like? When you are crying and someone listens to you With undivided attention? Real love? Sincerity? Comfort? I wish I could have these feelings bottled up like wine Stored up in my fridge for cloudy days When the ugly of the world is released.

Barbie Girl by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Barbie Girl

Do I look pretty to you today - With these pink cheeks and rouge lips And this straightened hair? With this dress and these shoes to match? Because my favorite feature is always my hazel eyes. Do I come with any talents, you say? I will write, I will bake, I will sing and draw But is it good enough for us today? Because I don’t know if I come with any pride. I am just a Barbie girl That is outdated with a broken heart. I will dance for you I will smile for you, But there are days where I’ll just tell you A prerecorded phrase And put on a bubbly mask. I will do the motions To make you happy, But underneath I have lies running t

The Step Off by HeatherLAAF, literature

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The Step Off

If I take this step You know, Just step off Do you think I will rise Or do you think I will crash? Do you think it’s possible to soar above the clouds Or is it much more likely To fall flat on my face? Do you think I can “accomplish what I set my mind to” Or do you think we all inevitably Fail? Do you think the risk Ever really pays off? Do you think taking chances Is always worth it? Because my heart is beating like taiko drums And my stomach churns like witch’s brew. My hands are crying tears from worry and fear And my mind races through this labyrinth. So what should I do? Should I just step off And see wher

If I Try by HeatherLAAF, literature

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If I Try

If I try hard enough, Can I fly? Can I feel the wind hug every bit of my body? A cool, magical wind That envelops me Protects me Shields me From any hail storm that comes. Will I feel free And all powerful? As I glide across the clouds Over the trees Over the rivers. Nothing can stop me. If I try hard enough, Can I escape? Just shoot up into the sky Like an old-fashion superhero And just take off when I want to When I need to. Can I see all my loved ones if I can fly? Whenever I miss them Wherever they may me. I know I can grow such majestic wings. I can escape and be free If only I try hard enough.

What a Girl Wants by HeatherLAAF, literature

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What a Girl Wants

I want to count the stars In a pitch black sky. It's when the only light in the world can be found in the dots splattered above And in the sparkle in your eyes. It's where the only warmth I feel is in a blanket I share with you. This blanket is an excuse to keep the cold breeze of bitter times at bay. Everything else is still Except for my pounding heart. And everything else is right And what isn’t is forgotten. Can you teach me where to find the constellations And how to catch a shooting star? I want to wake up with tired eyes And sit in the still day. Before the birds and the rabbits have stirred awake. I want to hold my breath A

What's Wrong by HeatherLAAF, literature

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What's Wrong

Is it wrong – To wonder what life would be like if You waited If You said no If You took a new path altogether. Where would I be living? What would I be doing? Who would I be loving? When would I get married? have the children? get the house? Are you a terrible person? Are you feeling regret? Because everyone looks at you with sparking eyes Rosy cheeks Glittering smiles And you stand there with a hallowed look. “Just grin and bear it.” Is it wrong? Am I wrong? Am I a dysfunctional toy that needs to be sent back and fixed? Make me brand new. You said yes. You didn’t wait. You made your bed, So go to sleep.

Just a Little by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Just a Little

Maybe just a little I’ll open my chest up. I’ll show you my heart. I’ll read it for you Like a crystal ball Like a secret diary. I’ll tell you how it feels. I’ll point out its scars. If you want to listen, I’ll show you just a little. Maybe just a little I’ll open up my head. I’ll show you my brain. I’ll show you its thoughts – The ones that flow in like a river Or crash in like the waves. I’ll show you where each thought connects Like a highway And where all the thoughts go. I’ll explain everything if you want to listen, But just a little. Only a little Because I̵

Nothing to See Here by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Nothing to See Here

Who am I? Why am I? Why am I here? A person who lived for far too long in fear Now lives with self-hatred A volcano in her belly Waiting to explode and burn out. Who am I? Why am I? Why am I here? Just to waste time Eventually disappear. Not making an impact Not there and not here. So why was I born in the first place? She’s a terrible friend. She’s a terrible significant other. She has no ambitions. She has no skill. She’s a shadow, Easy to forget. Easy to look past. Who is she? Why is she here? Just waiting for the day to disappear. Just waiting for the day to take a real breath Before her candle Is blown out.

Just a Shell by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Just a Shell

I feel Cold. As if I’m sinking Lower and lower Deeper and deeper Into a winter river. The light slowly is fading away And so am I Into the dark of it all. I feel Blank. Like an unwritten diary. There is no future And the present and past are not worth mentioning. Not at all. Empty. Like an old wine bottle And every drip hope dreams happiness joy They’ve all run dry. I’m a shell A shell that is cracking Cracking more. Cracking more. Will it be broken for good? I feel Cold. I feel Blank. I feel Empty. Just a shell. Where do I go from here?

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I Make Wishes by HeatherLAAF, literature

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I Make Wishes

Bottles by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Bottles

Barbie Girl by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Barbie Girl

The Step Off by HeatherLAAF, literature

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The Step Off

If I Try by HeatherLAAF, literature

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If I Try

What a Girl Wants by HeatherLAAF, literature

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What a Girl Wants

What's Wrong by HeatherLAAF, literature

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What's Wrong

Just a Little by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Just a Little

Nothing to See Here by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Nothing to See Here

Just a Shell by HeatherLAAF, literature

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Just a Shell

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Dirt and Seed by MirthandMoxy, literature

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Dirt and Seed

The things you said have come to pass I have been destroyed Diminished and hurting You have brought me pain But far from hating you I welcome every bit of this every bit of the cinder and flame that grows around me You can not lose all of me When I never claimed To be Whole

If it is born in flames then we should let it burn by MirthandMoxy, literature

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If it is born in flames then we should let it burn

we are not saplings melting in the bracken-fed flames of a summer fire green and smoking from the folly of passion we are redwoods thick-skinned and enduring far from burned by our own fires but rebirthed from them growing and reproducing creating and unfolding from the searing heat that engulfs us weaker loves are turned to ash by a brightness they cannot withstand but our roots are strong and tangled deep below the ground

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It Really Is Me (What It Boils Down To) by HeatherLAAF, literature

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It Really Is Me (What It Boils Down To)

I'm not trying to tell you you're wrong. No, I'm not telling you you don't know anything. I'm not calling you stupid. I'm not calling you blind. I'm not trying to tell you you're a failure. No, I'm not condemning you for how you live your life. I'm not trying to judge. I'm not trying to hate. What it boils down to is I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how the church can treat you. I'm sorry for how the church can model for you. We call ourselves Christians, but so many of us Do not live like Christ, and it's not right. A Christian is someone who believes in God, Who loves God, Who lives like God. Christianity is a relationship with God

It Really Is Me (What It Boils Down To)

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Current Residence: Indiana
Favourite genre of music: 90s, Kpop, Jrock
Favourite photographer: None
Favourite style of art: writing, music, stories, anime
Favourite cartoon character: Ferb or Nagisa

Favourite Movies

The Mummy

Favourite TV Shows

Sword Art Online, Sherlock, Mischevious Kiss

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

One OK Rock, Day 6

Favourite Books

A Walk to Remember, The Circle Trilogy

Favourite Writers

Ted Dekker, Jodi Picoult

Favourite Games

Nerdy table top games

Favourite Gaming Platform

both PC and console

Other Interests

baking, music, tv/movies, anime, drawing

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HeatherLAAF

Dec 27, 2012

Day After Christmas

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Well, I've been home for Christmas break for about a week and a half  (Oh, why does it ever have to end) and have been away from DA for far too long.     I've done some novels: heathermead.tk, and I should have some more up in this week (my devotional for young adults/college age about worrying and then a fiction novel about being a Christian/being the Church/battling persecution).  I have four poetry books and a testimony compilation on there too.     I've been fighting with poetry... not really, but we haven't talked in a while, sadly.  Miss it.     And I try to blog: http://missingmomentsreviews.blogspot.com/ (book, restaurant, game,

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HeatherLAAF

Aug 19, 2012

So Long, Farewell

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I will be leaving to go back to college in three days, which means I will be without Deviantart until I come home for a break, or at least until I go to Starbuck's and buy a drink (no spend money, nooo). I hate to leave the DA community.  I like seeing the pictures, reading the blogs, keeping tabs on people's works. I haven't written poetry in about a month and a half really, since I started doing novels and all, but if I did write something, I like putting it on here for feedback. So that's one thing I'll miss about home and break :(

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HeatherLAAF

Aug 14, 2012

Making a Love that Lasts

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If you've been keeping tabs, I have been blessed with being able to write and come up with many novel ideas as part of my Christian ministry. I am almost finished with Clears Every Tear, a devotional made up of people's testimonies-people from 9 years old to 70, people from all over the United States and some other countries, and people who are either new to faith or always believed.  Each person has a different story, but some people can relate in ways.  This book has about 60 testimonies and is divided up by weeks/topic. The point of this journal is that I will hopefully be able to begin a similar book called "Making a Love that Lasts."  

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xxcrashcourse

Feb 28, 2013

Hiya! My name is Heather and I'd be interested in submitting a testimony to your book "Clears Away Tears". Just thought I'd let you know

Sugar-Fire

Feb 15, 2013

Happy Valentines day!

YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!!

Spread the DA love around."You can copy and paste this message on their user page."

RULES:

1. You can hug the person who hugged you!
2. You must hug 6 other people at least!
3. You should hug the in public! Paste it on their page
4. Random hugs are perfectly okay "And sweet."
5. You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send this to all your friends and me if I am 1.
If you get 7 back you are loved.

1-3- you're a bad friend
4-6 you're and OK friend
7-9 you're a good friend
10 and up - you're a great friend

Thanks for the fave

thanks for the fav! =]

SeekHim

Nov 19, 2012

Listen there’s something else that I’m trying to raise awareness on.
Could you please check out this entry? I'd appreciate it.
And spread the word if you can, it’s very important

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GOD bless
John 3:16

Moonyzier

Oct 22, 2012

Thank you for the fave!

dottypurrs

Oct 21, 2012

thanks for the fav